Reality bites!

Man. I'm full. Like, I feel like I could spontaneously combust at any given moment. The kicker? I didn't really even overeat. Here's the rundown, if I can remember.

Saturday - turkey bacon for breakfast. Remember when I said I needed to go to the store? That's all I had in the house! I had the leftover smoked sausage and sweet potato (yam) hash from Friday's dinner for lunch, while the boys all had sandwiches and chips. OK, so I stuck with the Paleo diet those two meals. It was pouring rain ALL DAY yesterday, and yet I ventured (with baby boy in tow) to not only the grocery store, but to Bed Bath and Beyond for a new vacuum cleaner - fitting that ours broke and we were going to have a house full of people for Easter dinner today! So off we went, rain and all. By the time I got home (nearly 3 hours later!!!), it was 5:30 and the last thing I felt like doing was cooking dinner. So...we got pizza. It tasted good, I won't lie. But an hour later, I felt like a balloon, my belly hurt, I was bloated and gassy, and I felt like I should probably go force myself to throw up so I could feel better. I didn't...but I seriously contemplated it!

Sunday - for breakfast I had two pieces of sausage on tiny little party buns with a piece of cheese on each sandwich. It's my cheat weekend, I figured I should go all out with wheat AND dairy to boot! Besides, they were tiny little buns. :)

We had Easter dinner here with my family. Ham, baked beans, potato salad, homemade macaroni and cheese, deviled eggs, and an assortment of chips. I had a spoonful of each, but I didn't overdo it. Tradition is tradition, after all, and how could I pass up all that yummy food? For dessert, I made strawberry cupcakes (which I didn't eat), and a lemon ricotta cheesecake (which I did eat). I made it myself, and it was my first time ever attempting a from-scratch cheesecake. So I had a small slice. And it was goooood.

We ate at 1:00pm. It is now almost 9:00pm, and I literally feel like I just ate. I skipped dinner tonight because I was still so full. I can barely even choke down water without feeling like I'm going to explode.

Here's my conclusion. The Paleo Diet is awesome. Really, really awesome. When I do it, I feel great, have more energy, am less bitchy, don't complain of feeling "fat, bloated, gassy, hungry, stuffed," etc., etc. I know I'm putting healthy foods into my body on the Paleo Diet. I eat way, way more veggies when I'm following the diet. So the question is, why do I feel like I need to "cheat" and eat the forbidden foods?!?! I clearly feel like crap when I eat dairy and wheat. My body screams at me every time I do! So why do I do this?!?!?!

I'm back at it tomorrow. I hate to step on the scale to see what my weekend (really, just three meals!) has done to me. I know I feel like junk right now. I'm sure it won't be much different in the morning. I can't believe the difference in my body in just 2 weeks of eating whole, unprocessed foods. I don't know if this will really make me "lose jiggly fat" as the magazine promised (ha!). But I do know this: I feel better when I cut out grains and dairy. Period.